Thinking...

What will you do when you are lonely?

Like when you have been engulf by a shroud of never ending darkness...

You have so much kept inside but you just don't have the right person to talk to?

There is like a sense of emptiness inside that it's just like a puzzle missing it's last piece...

Haizzzz...

What does it take to just find the right person to let it all out?

Let all the raw emotions to burst out without the listener complaining?

Loneliness?

I haven't find a right cure for it yet except to just embrace it and let it consume you...

Because thats just how I handle it... Seriously...

Someone once told me hugging makes it feel better... Really?

I asked myself cause as long as I can remember I never been hugged by anyone... Even my own mother...

Hmmm... Worth some thought thinking about it...

These few months ago I had became very sensitive towards few issues that have been otherwise immune to me...

I've been thinking what is the reason that had make me become so?

Is it that I have grown weak and feeble mentally and just can't take any of this?

Or maybe I had just released some of my secrets that few know to a certain person?

In conclusion the reason is still uncertain and to all whom my behavior had caused you misery I apologize...

I think this is a few rare time that I wrote about my emotions...

When you just have time to be alone and just think about what you have done so far you will tend to think either very dumb things or things that you usually don't care much...

I think mine is a little mix of both...

I wrote this on a bus trip...

Start of holiday... Going to be bored...

Just finished all finals for my subject this semester...
Haizzz... Really speechless for the last paper... CHEMISTRY!!!
Have I mentioned that I DON'T LIKE CHEMISTRY!!!
Luckily my coursework marks were enough for me to pass...If not... Unimaginable...
The good thing is that is the start of the long awaited holiday... And the not so good part?? Bored...

Initially today my plan was to go to book fair... But...
After I went to consult something there wasn't really any time...
So invited Sujee to go for a game of pool... My treat...
But (again)... Her relative is coming to take her to shop or do anything fun in KL... BUMMER!!!
Then went to eat and saw Ji-Zhang and chat with him for a while and started to get desperate and finding Yi Wei for pool... But... He refused... Haizzzz...
Really started to get desperate...


Then what to do for 4 hours?? Since Dr. Choong is going back at 6pm...
I went to library and mann!!! Lemme tell you its the 1st time I saw the most people in the library and the noisiest!!! (Come on la librarian!! Do your job la!!!)
I went to read magazines which i don't have the time to read before...
But... I ended up sleeping in the library and playing with my IPod!!! Zzz...
I drooled all over my IPod sumore!!! WTF!!! Luckily its not damaged... IF not T_T...
Then at last at around 5.40pm i went to Dr. Choong's office but nobody was there... WTH!!!
And he called me and said he already half way back then I said never mind la...
I just wanted to remind him to let me know if there was something i can help in the lab during holiday... Don't want to get bored... Seriously...

Back to the topic at hand... WHAT AM I GOING TO DO IN THE HOLIDAYS??
Going to be so damn bored!!!
Planning to go to the book fair a few days later... Probably friday...
And the second week of December I have a camp coming up...
The week after that Im going for a trip to Pangkor (again) with my secondary frens (now there sumthn different...)
Only 3 EVENTS IN THE WHOLE 1 MONTH?? What am I going to do?
Haizzz... Planning to read as many novel as I can... Bought a lot of it last time... Going to buy more... Hehe...
Then maybe learn to play the piano again... Maybe...
And if can read about my next semester subjects... BIOCHEMISTRY & GENETICS...
Heard from senior its going to be very hard... Better start from now...
But the 1st thing I'm going to do is catch up the 2 episodes of TARA and TAR...
Last 2 weeks im going to have my finals so i couldn't find the time to watch it!!!
Hope CLAIRE & MICHELLE is still in TARA!!! >.<
As for TAR I juz want to see who win... Since the team I supported - TEAM JUMBA is eliminated... SAD...
Well thats my plan... Hope it won't be bored as I've said...

Finally I would want to wish all those having their SPM or STPM tomorrow all the best!!!

Hectic...

Nowadays so long didn't write blog ady...
Damn busy these days...
Especially with test last week and this week, not to mention all the constant assignments and reports...
Its driving me nuts!!! Haizz... 
But what to do?? Its degree so we must cope with it...
This week i have to do 3 lab report some more!!!
Monday I have to pass up 2 lab reports,but the saturday before I was goofing off... 
Bothered by some stupid matters... If it wasn't for that I can finish it by saturday itself...
Then I cant get it off my mind so went to watch movie alone... Watched MEGAMIND
Normally I won't watch cartoon in the cinema but since i was emotional so I made an exception...
Overall quite a good movie only it was too much a love story and the joke i think will be hard for the children to understand... But I've enjoyed it...
After that tried to call someone out but nobody's free, then go to eat char kuey teow... Lonely...
In the end rush all the report at Sunday...





Wednesday got test some more... Chemistry!!! I HATE CHEMISTRY!!!
I SUCK AT CHEMISTRY!!! (Thats not the reason...)
Read everything like its final... And still not confident after finish it... =.=
Thursday we got interview for our MCB SGD...
I havn't quite have the chance to go through what my other group member had did...
And when I did read... I already wished I didn't... It was really painstakingly hard to understand...
I should check for errors 1st before I let them pass it up... Luckily the question Dr Choong asked wasn't too hard... I think it has us being the last group and it is currently the last class...
Thursday was another round of quiz for us... This time was MCB so I was a little bit relieved... Little bit...
It was one of my favorite chapter... Immunity... I thought it was going to be easy... Or so I thought...
It was really tricky as the question was twisting and turning as they could... But I like a good challenge... Haha...

This week have spent a lot of time chatting with different people... At first I thought it will be a complete waste of time... But in the end it was quite enlightening listening to other people's stories or giving opinion...
You really can learn a lot from other just by listening...
And you can see a lot just by quietly observing people... Their character can come out by itself...
Wednesday go chat wif a secondary friend until 3.30AM... Very satisfying...
Although Im a little bit jealous of him but what's in the past had PASSED... No use grasping it...
Also Im quite happy for him... Hope he succeeds...
Before my group interview on the next day I had a brief (okay, not that brief) chat wif another college friend...
And thats my time that I show her my skill... (well its not much a skill) I think we chat for about 20 minutes or more... But time flies when you are chatting... Especially when things get interesting...
I've shown her the true picture and she agrees with me... What a surprise!!!
Thats the 1st time anybody sees eye to eye with me... (Very Happy!!)

Anyway Im going to KL tomorrow and having stomach upset... Hope it doesn't spoil my trip!!!
If everything goes well then going to post another blog tomorrow... CANT WAIT!!!