A message to my current self...

Things had really got out of hand for me...
I should have paid more attention to the signals...
But who am I to blame...
Maybe I'm a little stubborn...
Ignore it and just bear with the consequences...
How hard could it be? Well as I had found out now... REAL HARD!!!
If I could just heed the advice of others and stop and think for a while...
Just don't go rushing at it...
Maybe you can see a clearer picture...
Instead of just rushing at it and wanting to hear or think what you want to think...
That is very selfish of me and at the end of the day the only casualty is me...
Just reconsider for a while...
Not to say give up completely...
You are an educated person... Don't go around like a savage...
Didn't you get that lesson already before?
One little mistake of all or nothing has made matters from bad to worse before...
The experiment had been wrong... Stop dwelling around or crying over spill milk...
Think of way to improve it, make a discussion... or better yet... Design another one...
With now you really have nothing to loose...
REALLY STOP AND THINK FOR ONE F**KING WHILE DAMNIT!!!


But deep inside I know its simply too easy to say and too hard to do...
I'm in too deep and reluctant to let go...
Its always going to end with a no...
Its a destined end for the show...

Saturday night outing...

Saturday was planning to go out for a movie for a long time...
SUCKER PUNCH!!! Hell Yeah!!!
Been waiting for a long time to watch this movie since the trailer came out...
Really a great movie!!! Although the plot was not good enough but the crazy graphic made up for it...
The ending was especially nice... Combination of the song with th ending almost made me cry...
The movie cost me RM12... I had one complementary coupon but because it was a new movie so it cannnot be used... Damn expensive but in the end the movie was worth it... ^^

Was in a hurry in the beginning as the movie started 6.30 but i left my house at around 5.30...
Luckily there was a parking near the loading platform at Jusco...
But because I forgot to turn my car before parking... Getiing the car out would be a pain in the ass...
It took me almost 15 minutes just to reverse my car out of the spot...

One of the reason I would spend my Saturday to watch movie is due to SUCKER PUNCH... I had been anticipating this Zack Snyder's piece of art for a long time...
Another was to attend the yum cha by winson and jia hong... But in the end it was cancelled due to Winson's tiredness... TMD

In the end I went to eat Chow Kuey Teow... Alone..
But dont know why everytime I saw the young girl there I will not feel emo... I wonder...
Was quite emo at that time when thinking about something... And someone...
The way I think that she is evading me... Like Im some kind of monster or abomination always make me sad...
Another thing is about the presentation stuff... Made me quite emotional... Haizzz...
But after my meal I think that my troubles had declined abit... Haha...

Well here's a poster of SUCKER PUNCH... ENJOY!!!

If you don't stand for anything, you'll fall for everything - Wise Man (Sucker Punch... Where else??)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

Next time should really think 1st... But... Is it really my fault?

Having my poster presentation today... 1st time we are doing it...
Well the term poster is just a fancy name for a single piece of slideshow... LOL
This is the 1st time that I actually didn't involve in making the poster...
I think I didn't involve in doing anything at all except went and ask the lecturer how it should be done...
Seriously need to thanks my group members Jing Yi, Chloe and Becky!!!
Really sorry I didn't do anything!!! Hope I can repay you next time if we are in the same group again!!! XD

Frankly speaking I never had a real look at the poster being that there were a test earlier in the morning... And I spent all my time in studying GEN... LOL...
In the end I just did 80% of my part... wait... 70% of my part were reading... And the rest... Well I cracked a few jokes but whether did it worked? I had to leave that to the audiences... But  they don't seem to amused to me...

Really annoyed when I was used as an example for somebody else's part...
It was like critisizing me but with positive results... I think in a way I'm popular in class now... XD
Stupid XXY... Keep using me as example and critisizing me afterwards...

But the thing that caught most of my attention was during Tze Xin, Debra and Bei Ru's presentation...
I think their group I paid most of the attention...
But at the end I ask question to Tze Xin... And her reaction was...
Lets just say we were looking into each other's eyes... Not the romantic type but more of the... Dazing type...
Then she said she don't know how to answer but actually she already answer in her presentation.
In the end she accused me of ruining her presentation by asking that question...
She started getting furious at me and then just walked away...
But after that she just walked away saying she forgive me... WTH?? Mood swings?
I accompanied her back halfway and she said she wasn't mad anymore but who in the world know whether is that the truth...

Later I chat with my other friend he said that it was her fault don't know how to answer...
And some more wanted to blame on other people...
But that time I also don't know what am I suppose to think about...
Because my question was also quite complex...
Is it my fault or hers? In the end undecided...

In the end I just want to state that I'm really sorry and wished that you really forgive me...