Degree week 7... Self Reflection...

Almost half of the degree have past and Im still very doubtful before today.
Im always thinking whether Biotechnology is really for me?
I've already sat for 3 test in the past 2 weeks.
Chemistry, Mathematics and Sociology
During Chemistry while doing the 1st few questions I was really confident
then it happened... I saw a question that's familiar
it was completely the same from the textbook!!!
and the lecturer said he wont take any question from that part!!!
after that any question from there on i was just shocked...
and my test result everyone can guess it... FAIL!!!
a big fat fail that's staring into my face!!!
the few days that followed I was damn depressed!!!
I keep going around and blaming on that lecturer!!!
While some of my friends share my opinion...
But some simply critisize that it was my mistake and I shouldn't blame on others...
Their word shocked me to the core...
After that I did some self reflecting as my Sociology lecturer would said.
I was so shocked by my F that I couldn't even concentrate on my following tests
until to the radical point I keep thinking whether I'm on the right path
Whether am I really cut out to be in this course.
Until last Sunday I just on my typical studying for the coming MCB(Molecular Cell and Biology) test 1...
While reading I really searched back the curiousity I once has as a kid...
At Monday I even didn't bother to swim as I always does before 10am class
But I simply went to INTI to study (really took me some time to think thru)
After studying for 4 hours in the library and listening to Biotechnology class (this is the 1st time I didn't fell asleep... Haha)
The class was quite interesting...
Then after when I sat for the test it wasn't as hard as I imagined...
But I still have a few question that I really wasnt't sure (not to boast)
I've learnt that although I can't really be good in calculation subjects such as MAthematics and Chemistry I will try my best and just be done with it.
All I need to do now is just put more effort on it coz I failed test 1...Sob...
And that means less facebook time in the future... Haizzz...