What I have done in 2010...

Actually theres not much...

Come to think bout there isn't anything wort writing... Haha...

LOL... Sure got something de... I didn't waste my whole year juz staring into blank space...

1st i think Im happy that I made a bunch of new friends especially during the camp back during April (or was it May? Sorry can't remember ady...)

1st time become a group leader sumore... If that was me last time I wouldn't hesitate and then turn it down...

Then had a lot of fun wif them...

Recently joined another camp with them again... And then made more friends...

Really a good gang to hang out wif... Sports or go for a movie also can...

Another really big thing is that I finally learnt how to ride a bicycle!!!

YEAH!!! Take that a**holes who keep saying its impossible for me to learn!!!

I had to admit it was quite late for me to learn it... (WTF? Quite? Ur bro learn it when he was 7!!!)

Hey... you know what they say... Better late then never!!!

I have to give credits to all the people to encourage me to do so...

Actually to say all people there is only 1 if not 2... Loen... Haha... U probably never going to read this...

Another thing is I finally made a few friends that I can truly share my secrets with without afraid it being leaked...

Although one of them is going away and I probably never going to see her in person again... SOB...

But thanks to her she made my 2010 not as dull as I expected it would be...

Im going to be okay amidst all the haters... Im contented ady...

Few days back I finally found somebody in my secondary group who I can truly talk to without being mocked...

It really is hard to store all the emotions in for 2 years without leaking it out...

But I think the dam is on the brink of bursting...

The advice she gave me is hard to digest but I'll try to take it in... And hope all the best to you too!!!

FINALLY!!! After more than a year I finally had it!!!

The wait is worth it when I had it in my palm... The sense of touching it was better than I thought...

I played with it everyday from the day I had it until now..

It really is everything I dreamed of and more...

Its my IPOD TOUCH!!!

Yeah!!! Had it in November!!!

Really worth 830!!!

And I still think its better than having an iPhone is because it has all the function an iPhone has minus the SMS and the call... For that it is 1200 cheaper!!!

I rather take my iPod and my phone along and it doesn't cost that much!!!

I LOVE iT!!! MUACKS!!!

This year is also the 1st time I had a job before...

Well it was nothing fancy... Just a part-time job as a waiter... Not to say a very good experience though...

The food was well... Enough ta make me not go back to that restaurant... EVER!!!

And that gave me a bad image of Korean cuisine...

And the next was as a helper in INTI during enrolment...

That was just for the fun of it!!! Was too bored at home... Haha... SERIOUSLY...

Finally I want to say I know I havn't been the best of what I can be in 2010... Academically or socially... I think more on socially as... well most of you knows...

I'll do my best to change my attitude and my outlook of people...

Really want to become the best I can be in the next year!!!

And Im really addicted to YouTube now... Im not lying... Really hope can minus the time on it and the time Im on Faebook!!!

SOMEBODY HELP ME IM REALLY ADDICTED TO IT!!! (HAHA... Juz kidding!!! Or am I?)

 

Friends??

Friends... Hmmm... How do you define them?
A group of people who group together by similar interest?
But if that is the case... If they cant mix together well does that group called friends too?
Then is it a group with different interest but can mix together well can consider as friends better?
Friends are group that have bonds among each other and not harm among themselves right?
Unless if one of them committed anything bad towards them... Then it is another case entirely...

OK enough introduction ady... Just something I wanted to clarify before I start...
Its just a blog what am I saying that for? Haha... I really gone crazy ady...
Just went for a trip and another camp... Before I went for both I was looking forward to the trip more thn the camp... Becoz I was going with my secondary friends to the trip instead of my other friends which I havn't met for half a year... 
Common sense tell me so as I know them better... But as always the reality is cruel...
I literally had the time of my life during the 3 days 2 night in fotang and during the camp...
Had a lot of great time and met a lot of new friends... Really cant think of anytime a had more fun than that...
Oh yeah... That was last time in Pangkor wif my INTI friends... (No offence...)

And the trip on the next week is... well... in a word... Not as good as I expected...
Most of the time was in the room and the activity they did wasn't as good as last time bcoz of the timing...
One of the activity i admit it was my bad as I duno how to ride a bike... I learning now...
And bcoz of that I have a driver!!! YAY!!!
But bcoz there was some problem of me with them so it wasn so fun compared to my last group...
Bcoz during my time with my last group I was not considered a punching bag or a pin cushion...
On the other hand I was treated like... I also dont know want to use what to describe...
Especially a few that I think they had a grudge or something against me...

A few days before the trip was very hectic...
Wednesday went to badminton with Reico, Sheng Kai and Nicholas Wong...
Really cant tahan Reico too pro ady... We are not aiming for the shuttlecock but avoiding it!!! >.<
Thursday went to watch movie with a bunch of kids... (just joking la...) one of them was my bro's classmate...
Haha... know a lot of things from her... Really had fun laughing in front of McDonalds... Like a few lunatics...


Finally I would like to state that no offence to anybody if they think they are humiliated in anyway by the words above...

Thinking...

What will you do when you are lonely?

Like when you have been engulf by a shroud of never ending darkness...

You have so much kept inside but you just don't have the right person to talk to?

There is like a sense of emptiness inside that it's just like a puzzle missing it's last piece...

Haizzzz...

What does it take to just find the right person to let it all out?

Let all the raw emotions to burst out without the listener complaining?

Loneliness?

I haven't find a right cure for it yet except to just embrace it and let it consume you...

Because thats just how I handle it... Seriously...

Someone once told me hugging makes it feel better... Really?

I asked myself cause as long as I can remember I never been hugged by anyone... Even my own mother...

Hmmm... Worth some thought thinking about it...

These few months ago I had became very sensitive towards few issues that have been otherwise immune to me...

I've been thinking what is the reason that had make me become so?

Is it that I have grown weak and feeble mentally and just can't take any of this?

Or maybe I had just released some of my secrets that few know to a certain person?

In conclusion the reason is still uncertain and to all whom my behavior had caused you misery I apologize...

I think this is a few rare time that I wrote about my emotions...

When you just have time to be alone and just think about what you have done so far you will tend to think either very dumb things or things that you usually don't care much...

I think mine is a little mix of both...

I wrote this on a bus trip...

Start of holiday... Going to be bored...

Just finished all finals for my subject this semester...
Haizzz... Really speechless for the last paper... CHEMISTRY!!!
Have I mentioned that I DON'T LIKE CHEMISTRY!!!
Luckily my coursework marks were enough for me to pass...If not... Unimaginable...
The good thing is that is the start of the long awaited holiday... And the not so good part?? Bored...

Initially today my plan was to go to book fair... But...
After I went to consult something there wasn't really any time...
So invited Sujee to go for a game of pool... My treat...
But (again)... Her relative is coming to take her to shop or do anything fun in KL... BUMMER!!!
Then went to eat and saw Ji-Zhang and chat with him for a while and started to get desperate and finding Yi Wei for pool... But... He refused... Haizzzz...
Really started to get desperate...


Then what to do for 4 hours?? Since Dr. Choong is going back at 6pm...
I went to library and mann!!! Lemme tell you its the 1st time I saw the most people in the library and the noisiest!!! (Come on la librarian!! Do your job la!!!)
I went to read magazines which i don't have the time to read before...
But... I ended up sleeping in the library and playing with my IPod!!! Zzz...
I drooled all over my IPod sumore!!! WTF!!! Luckily its not damaged... IF not T_T...
Then at last at around 5.40pm i went to Dr. Choong's office but nobody was there... WTH!!!
And he called me and said he already half way back then I said never mind la...
I just wanted to remind him to let me know if there was something i can help in the lab during holiday... Don't want to get bored... Seriously...

Back to the topic at hand... WHAT AM I GOING TO DO IN THE HOLIDAYS??
Going to be so damn bored!!!
Planning to go to the book fair a few days later... Probably friday...
And the second week of December I have a camp coming up...
The week after that Im going for a trip to Pangkor (again) with my secondary frens (now there sumthn different...)
Only 3 EVENTS IN THE WHOLE 1 MONTH?? What am I going to do?
Haizzz... Planning to read as many novel as I can... Bought a lot of it last time... Going to buy more... Hehe...
Then maybe learn to play the piano again... Maybe...
And if can read about my next semester subjects... BIOCHEMISTRY & GENETICS...
Heard from senior its going to be very hard... Better start from now...
But the 1st thing I'm going to do is catch up the 2 episodes of TARA and TAR...
Last 2 weeks im going to have my finals so i couldn't find the time to watch it!!!
Hope CLAIRE & MICHELLE is still in TARA!!! >.<
As for TAR I juz want to see who win... Since the team I supported - TEAM JUMBA is eliminated... SAD...
Well thats my plan... Hope it won't be bored as I've said...

Finally I would want to wish all those having their SPM or STPM tomorrow all the best!!!

Hectic...

Nowadays so long didn't write blog ady...
Damn busy these days...
Especially with test last week and this week, not to mention all the constant assignments and reports...
Its driving me nuts!!! Haizz... 
But what to do?? Its degree so we must cope with it...
This week i have to do 3 lab report some more!!!
Monday I have to pass up 2 lab reports,but the saturday before I was goofing off... 
Bothered by some stupid matters... If it wasn't for that I can finish it by saturday itself...
Then I cant get it off my mind so went to watch movie alone... Watched MEGAMIND
Normally I won't watch cartoon in the cinema but since i was emotional so I made an exception...
Overall quite a good movie only it was too much a love story and the joke i think will be hard for the children to understand... But I've enjoyed it...
After that tried to call someone out but nobody's free, then go to eat char kuey teow... Lonely...
In the end rush all the report at Sunday...





Wednesday got test some more... Chemistry!!! I HATE CHEMISTRY!!!
I SUCK AT CHEMISTRY!!! (Thats not the reason...)
Read everything like its final... And still not confident after finish it... =.=
Thursday we got interview for our MCB SGD...
I havn't quite have the chance to go through what my other group member had did...
And when I did read... I already wished I didn't... It was really painstakingly hard to understand...
I should check for errors 1st before I let them pass it up... Luckily the question Dr Choong asked wasn't too hard... I think it has us being the last group and it is currently the last class...
Thursday was another round of quiz for us... This time was MCB so I was a little bit relieved... Little bit...
It was one of my favorite chapter... Immunity... I thought it was going to be easy... Or so I thought...
It was really tricky as the question was twisting and turning as they could... But I like a good challenge... Haha...

This week have spent a lot of time chatting with different people... At first I thought it will be a complete waste of time... But in the end it was quite enlightening listening to other people's stories or giving opinion...
You really can learn a lot from other just by listening...
And you can see a lot just by quietly observing people... Their character can come out by itself...
Wednesday go chat wif a secondary friend until 3.30AM... Very satisfying...
Although Im a little bit jealous of him but what's in the past had PASSED... No use grasping it...
Also Im quite happy for him... Hope he succeeds...
Before my group interview on the next day I had a brief (okay, not that brief) chat wif another college friend...
And thats my time that I show her my skill... (well its not much a skill) I think we chat for about 20 minutes or more... But time flies when you are chatting... Especially when things get interesting...
I've shown her the true picture and she agrees with me... What a surprise!!!
Thats the 1st time anybody sees eye to eye with me... (Very Happy!!)

Anyway Im going to KL tomorrow and having stomach upset... Hope it doesn't spoil my trip!!!
If everything goes well then going to post another blog tomorrow... CANT WAIT!!!

开心的星期

最近花了很多时间来谈天。。。

星期一（好像是）放学后跟讲师冲六点谈到八点半

最后还是他在我到火车站

幸亏火车早到，但是回到都已近十点了

回到家好累==

第二天又花了两个小时和淑琦谈天

很不错，学了我很多以前都不知道的事

好有趣哦，哈哈

还有说了一些话搞到我现在有一些困惑

都是因为你讲了那句话啦！！

那天突然我上次和我一起打工的朋友打电话给我

说有工作给我，要不要和他一起去做

但整体来讲它就没有说是什么工作

弄到很神秘的样子

本来说下一天出来讲的，但是因为她不得孔说一要改下一次

还在想着什么是network marketing...

她讲是这个但没多加解释 （搞什么神秘啦！！！）

今天很高兴，中学朋友突然找我谈天

说考试过后找我出来

要找到然可以，但最好不要在我考试期间

我说等在下个星期或23号过后我才得空，她说没关系

好期待哦！！ （最好那时她还记得我。。><)

反省

人的天性时不时看到人家有比自己好的东西就要呢？
如果得不到会怎样呢？
会不会有那种如果别人拿不到，就没有人可以拿到？
相信大多数的人都是这样的吧，我也不例外。。。

时常看到人家快乐的样子，我就恨不得想把他们的笑容都摘下
看到人家有好的东西，也希望会快一点坏了
看到人家的成绩好过我，就像一定要赢了他们
就算赢了也使我一个人高兴业无所谓
因为我自己知道我好过他们，我自己高兴又如何呢？

唉。。。一直以来都是以这种想法生活
时不时要改下呢？
改了又会怎样呢？我的人生是否会好一点呢？
朋友会不会多一点呢？
真是不明白，要好好认真地想一想