A message to my current self...

Things had really got out of hand for me...
I should have paid more attention to the signals...
But who am I to blame...
Maybe I'm a little stubborn...
Ignore it and just bear with the consequences...
How hard could it be? Well as I had found out now... REAL HARD!!!
If I could just heed the advice of others and stop and think for a while...
Just don't go rushing at it...
Maybe you can see a clearer picture...
Instead of just rushing at it and wanting to hear or think what you want to think...
That is very selfish of me and at the end of the day the only casualty is me...
Just reconsider for a while...
Not to say give up completely...
You are an educated person... Don't go around like a savage...
Didn't you get that lesson already before?
One little mistake of all or nothing has made matters from bad to worse before...
The experiment had been wrong... Stop dwelling around or crying over spill milk...
Think of way to improve it, make a discussion... or better yet... Design another one...
With now you really have nothing to loose...
REALLY STOP AND THINK FOR ONE F**KING WHILE DAMNIT!!!


But deep inside I know its simply too easy to say and too hard to do...
I'm in too deep and reluctant to let go...
Its always going to end with a no...
Its a destined end for the show...

Saturday night outing...

Saturday was planning to go out for a movie for a long time...
SUCKER PUNCH!!! Hell Yeah!!!
Been waiting for a long time to watch this movie since the trailer came out...
Really a great movie!!! Although the plot was not good enough but the crazy graphic made up for it...
The ending was especially nice... Combination of the song with th ending almost made me cry...
The movie cost me RM12... I had one complementary coupon but because it was a new movie so it cannnot be used... Damn expensive but in the end the movie was worth it... ^^

Was in a hurry in the beginning as the movie started 6.30 but i left my house at around 5.30...
Luckily there was a parking near the loading platform at Jusco...
But because I forgot to turn my car before parking... Getiing the car out would be a pain in the ass...
It took me almost 15 minutes just to reverse my car out of the spot...

One of the reason I would spend my Saturday to watch movie is due to SUCKER PUNCH... I had been anticipating this Zack Snyder's piece of art for a long time...
Another was to attend the yum cha by winson and jia hong... But in the end it was cancelled due to Winson's tiredness... TMD

In the end I went to eat Chow Kuey Teow... Alone..
But dont know why everytime I saw the young girl there I will not feel emo... I wonder...
Was quite emo at that time when thinking about something... And someone...
The way I think that she is evading me... Like Im some kind of monster or abomination always make me sad...
Another thing is about the presentation stuff... Made me quite emotional... Haizzz...
But after my meal I think that my troubles had declined abit... Haha...

Well here's a poster of SUCKER PUNCH... ENJOY!!!

If you don't stand for anything, you'll fall for everything - Wise Man (Sucker Punch... Where else??)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

Next time should really think 1st... But... Is it really my fault?

Having my poster presentation today... 1st time we are doing it...
Well the term poster is just a fancy name for a single piece of slideshow... LOL
This is the 1st time that I actually didn't involve in making the poster...
I think I didn't involve in doing anything at all except went and ask the lecturer how it should be done...
Seriously need to thanks my group members Jing Yi, Chloe and Becky!!!
Really sorry I didn't do anything!!! Hope I can repay you next time if we are in the same group again!!! XD

Frankly speaking I never had a real look at the poster being that there were a test earlier in the morning... And I spent all my time in studying GEN... LOL...
In the end I just did 80% of my part... wait... 70% of my part were reading... And the rest... Well I cracked a few jokes but whether did it worked? I had to leave that to the audiences... But  they don't seem to amused to me...

Really annoyed when I was used as an example for somebody else's part...
It was like critisizing me but with positive results... I think in a way I'm popular in class now... XD
Stupid XXY... Keep using me as example and critisizing me afterwards...

But the thing that caught most of my attention was during Tze Xin, Debra and Bei Ru's presentation...
I think their group I paid most of the attention...
But at the end I ask question to Tze Xin... And her reaction was...
Lets just say we were looking into each other's eyes... Not the romantic type but more of the... Dazing type...
Then she said she don't know how to answer but actually she already answer in her presentation.
In the end she accused me of ruining her presentation by asking that question...
She started getting furious at me and then just walked away...
But after that she just walked away saying she forgive me... WTH?? Mood swings?
I accompanied her back halfway and she said she wasn't mad anymore but who in the world know whether is that the truth...

Later I chat with my other friend he said that it was her fault don't know how to answer...
And some more wanted to blame on other people...
But that time I also don't know what am I suppose to think about...
Because my question was also quite complex...
Is it my fault or hers? In the end undecided...

In the end I just want to state that I'm really sorry and wished that you really forgive me...

My no. 23...

Hmmm... I've been friend with you for a few years ady...
And the impression you gave me is... Well... Unpleasant...
Thats the most least offensive words I can come up with... I've been keeping everything inside me...
Well its no secret how I felt towards you... At least a few know it and a handful can see it...
You humiliated me... Mocked me... Laughed at me and make lots of jokes using me...
Have you ever considered how I felt? Well as a matter of fact YOU DO!!!
"He won't mind de la... He is used to it ady..."
Thats almost always your excuse... I didn't even have any say in it either...
Why? Cause if I offend you I offend the whole gang...
You had the whole gang under your arms... For the greater good I resist...

When a few months ago I heard that you were going away I bet I was the happiest to heard about it...
Just imagining all the bad memories and all the things u said about me were going to be a thing of the past couldn't had made me any happier...
I admit that there was a time that you going away were not good enough for me that I even curse you...
Thinking about it now still make me happy a little...

But up to a few weeks ago your attitude towards me suddenly changed 180 degrees!!!
Saying that whatever you said to me before were just playing... They were just harmless teasing...
And I were still treated as your friend as I was always invited to your gatherings and activities...
To me your harmless teasing were like arrows having a collision course to my heart... And I think there is barely any room for more arrows...
So I just take it as your senseless pleading so that at least when you leave you still have a good reputation from me... But I can assure your efforts are all futile...
To me I still didn't feel anything as I thought it must be temporary, another trick or hormonal imbalance...
Then a really close friend of mine told me that you were advised by a few people to go easy on me but Im still not convinced so Im  not buying it...
Up until a few weeks ago the hurting words decreased and you said your pleadings an dew times more so I was a bit convinced...
But don't get me wrong I am still happy that you are leaving...


The moment the feeling of hatred towards you greatly diminished is when I receive the package you sent...
It was nothing much but after I asked who received it a I was a bit shocked...
Mostly because the person I had least expected to received it you sent it and the person I had most expected didn't receive it...
So my outlooked for you is a bit brighter now...
and your advice for me I shall cherish it...

I doubt anybody will figure out who I am talking about but in the end I wish you all the best...
But is that from my heart? That is for me to know and for everybody else to find out...

CNY 2011 Part 1 (just to sum things up...)

Had a really awesome CNY!!! Maybe the best thus far!!!
With the face that this is the only year that I won a lot of greens... Haha
First day was a blast!!! Crazy with my Primary school gang... Yeah...
1st stop was Jovial's house... Like last time but this time I don't need to wait in the car for like an hour...
Then start gambling for a while then headed to Joise's house which was on the far side of Kepayang...
Really far then we waited at Templer there sumore for them to fetch her 1st... But 1 year once so Im not complaining... And Im not alone in the car so wont be bored... Haha... Pity Kylie...
Then continue gamble at Joise's house... Really don't know she gambled?? (surprised...)
After that went to Jackee's house which was at another side of S2... (didn know alot of my primary friends live around that area... @@)
We went there just to chat for a while then E Hin invited her girlfriend out to join us... Think begging was the word... Haha... jkjk
Then the whole gang went to fetch her again and try guessing where she lives?? Yes!!! S2!!!
After that we went to Kok Kian's house which was in Dusun Setia there...
Because it was the 1st day of Chinese New Year?? so I had to go n visit the paternal side of my family... Sien...
I juz went to Kok Kian's house for 15 minutes tops then quickly rush to my grandma's house which was luckily nearby and wait for my mom and bro to arrive... (damn hectic!!!)
After I "stayed" for about 1 hour or a little more I went to dinner at Lucky... At Permai there
We celebrated Joise's birthday and I almost got drunk by gulping down a whole glass of whiskey... Almost...
Amazingly I still can drive to Hao Yan's house at Permai... I am that good... (self praising again...)
After that we went to my place again to gamble sumore which we were constantly interrupted by the annoying fireworks next door... Jackee's car alarm always went off...
Then we went to E Hin's girlfriend's house all the way in S2 to gamble sumore... Along with my brother which tagged along... In the end the 1st day I won 40 bucks... Yeah!!! Thats the most I won like forever!!!
Really the best CNY for me thus far!!! ^^



The next day was kinda dull for me...
Coz all of my friends was quite busy in the day so I have to occupy myself by watching the Royal Rumble which had a very shocking finish!!!
At around noon I went to visit my maternal grandmother...
Which most of the time there I was just occupying myself with my iPod and watching 14 Blades on TV... Bored...
We left at about 7 sumthn as I need to go Hui Nee's house...
But before that I had to fetch Yi Cheng which has completely forgotten about it... Zzz
I reached there about 8.30 when I was thought I was late but Im actually the 1st??
In the end Winson, Yun Ying, Wen Yee, Jia Hong, Nelson, Kiu Leong, Zhang Roong & Xin Yi arrived...
We gambled until 10 sumthn then went to A&W to eat...
I think I drunk 4 or 5 cans of Tiger at Hui Nee's house before I left so I insisted I didn drive...
Luckily I didn!!! There was a roadblock on the streets!!! Damn lucky!!!
After that wen went to Xin Yi's house and gamble until 1 sumthn in the morning!!!
Then the next day the adventure continues... (more on part 2...)

What I have done in 2010...

Actually theres not much...

Come to think bout there isn't anything wort writing... Haha...

LOL... Sure got something de... I didn't waste my whole year juz staring into blank space...

1st i think Im happy that I made a bunch of new friends especially during the camp back during April (or was it May? Sorry can't remember ady...)

1st time become a group leader sumore... If that was me last time I wouldn't hesitate and then turn it down...

Then had a lot of fun wif them...

Recently joined another camp with them again... And then made more friends...

Really a good gang to hang out wif... Sports or go for a movie also can...

Another really big thing is that I finally learnt how to ride a bicycle!!!

YEAH!!! Take that a**holes who keep saying its impossible for me to learn!!!

I had to admit it was quite late for me to learn it... (WTF? Quite? Ur bro learn it when he was 7!!!)

Hey... you know what they say... Better late then never!!!

I have to give credits to all the people to encourage me to do so...

Actually to say all people there is only 1 if not 2... Loen... Haha... U probably never going to read this...

Another thing is I finally made a few friends that I can truly share my secrets with without afraid it being leaked...

Although one of them is going away and I probably never going to see her in person again... SOB...

But thanks to her she made my 2010 not as dull as I expected it would be...

Im going to be okay amidst all the haters... Im contented ady...

Few days back I finally found somebody in my secondary group who I can truly talk to without being mocked...

It really is hard to store all the emotions in for 2 years without leaking it out...

But I think the dam is on the brink of bursting...

The advice she gave me is hard to digest but I'll try to take it in... And hope all the best to you too!!!

FINALLY!!! After more than a year I finally had it!!!

The wait is worth it when I had it in my palm... The sense of touching it was better than I thought...

I played with it everyday from the day I had it until now..

It really is everything I dreamed of and more...

Its my IPOD TOUCH!!!

Yeah!!! Had it in November!!!

Really worth 830!!!

And I still think its better than having an iPhone is because it has all the function an iPhone has minus the SMS and the call... For that it is 1200 cheaper!!!

I rather take my iPod and my phone along and it doesn't cost that much!!!

I LOVE iT!!! MUACKS!!!

This year is also the 1st time I had a job before...

Well it was nothing fancy... Just a part-time job as a waiter... Not to say a very good experience though...

The food was well... Enough ta make me not go back to that restaurant... EVER!!!

And that gave me a bad image of Korean cuisine...

And the next was as a helper in INTI during enrolment...

That was just for the fun of it!!! Was too bored at home... Haha... SERIOUSLY...

Finally I want to say I know I havn't been the best of what I can be in 2010... Academically or socially... I think more on socially as... well most of you knows...

I'll do my best to change my attitude and my outlook of people...

Really want to become the best I can be in the next year!!!

And Im really addicted to YouTube now... Im not lying... Really hope can minus the time on it and the time Im on Faebook!!!

SOMEBODY HELP ME IM REALLY ADDICTED TO IT!!! (HAHA... Juz kidding!!! Or am I?)

 

Friends??

Friends... Hmmm... How do you define them?
A group of people who group together by similar interest?
But if that is the case... If they cant mix together well does that group called friends too?
Then is it a group with different interest but can mix together well can consider as friends better?
Friends are group that have bonds among each other and not harm among themselves right?
Unless if one of them committed anything bad towards them... Then it is another case entirely...

OK enough introduction ady... Just something I wanted to clarify before I start...
Its just a blog what am I saying that for? Haha... I really gone crazy ady...
Just went for a trip and another camp... Before I went for both I was looking forward to the trip more thn the camp... Becoz I was going with my secondary friends to the trip instead of my other friends which I havn't met for half a year... 
Common sense tell me so as I know them better... But as always the reality is cruel...
I literally had the time of my life during the 3 days 2 night in fotang and during the camp...
Had a lot of great time and met a lot of new friends... Really cant think of anytime a had more fun than that...
Oh yeah... That was last time in Pangkor wif my INTI friends... (No offence...)

And the trip on the next week is... well... in a word... Not as good as I expected...
Most of the time was in the room and the activity they did wasn't as good as last time bcoz of the timing...
One of the activity i admit it was my bad as I duno how to ride a bike... I learning now...
And bcoz of that I have a driver!!! YAY!!!
But bcoz there was some problem of me with them so it wasn so fun compared to my last group...
Bcoz during my time with my last group I was not considered a punching bag or a pin cushion...
On the other hand I was treated like... I also dont know want to use what to describe...
Especially a few that I think they had a grudge or something against me...

A few days before the trip was very hectic...
Wednesday went to badminton with Reico, Sheng Kai and Nicholas Wong...
Really cant tahan Reico too pro ady... We are not aiming for the shuttlecock but avoiding it!!! >.<
Thursday went to watch movie with a bunch of kids... (just joking la...) one of them was my bro's classmate...
Haha... know a lot of things from her... Really had fun laughing in front of McDonalds... Like a few lunatics...


Finally I would like to state that no offence to anybody if they think they are humiliated in anyway by the words above...